he is the guy ...

about a year ago, i started to know this guy. With a big (huge) body, i have no other first impression except he's the brave one. HAHA [ lebayyy ]. ya , told you so, i thought this is not the first time I told you about him in this blog.

month by month , day by day, after i (finally) made a choice to have a relationship with him, now the time has come for me to think about the whole thing that (maybe) we have to work out together. about what may comes, what may stop, and surely something that can't ever be change.

However peoples said that love never fails, the truth is yes maybe (someday) i will failed with this one. The problem is this is not about someday we have to say goodbye and go with our own life. but for me, it's how i will forget because the whole thing that i've passed by with him IS too sweet.

Last night, we went to see some friends of him to play together in one of coffee shop in the mid of Jak. I met one of his best friends there (a girl). She is in a relationship with a guy for 5 years till present. but ... with a same case as me. they also had that differences. What makes it different is, the guy is in the process of making it the same ( you know what i mean, right ? ) . I got a lil shocked when my bf told me this. and when i got in car , i said to him a sorry that (surely) me myself, can't do like what his friends do.

I just can go through this.
that's all.

And what he said back is that maybe a bout a half or a year later, he'll graduates . Then he starts to work and so on .. get a new life a long. there'll be a time for us to get along with our own, start to make other relationship. friends , bro-sis, or whatever. Yes, simply the truth , like it simply hurts * siiigh *

Something hurts me, yet I know it shouldn't.

Well, that's my choice.
The unpredictable for me is i just don't know that i could lov him like this. He is the guy who always be with me no matter what i went through. He is always okey to be everything i need. He is the guy who spend his time accompany when i was lying too desperately in my bed because of my dbd, giving me the unforgetable trip in my life, givin' the best birthday. The one who cooked me some breakfast when i have no money to buy some. He gave me a lot of college notes , teach me along the day just to make me sure that i could get higher score than him. Someone to cry on, someone that has never ever mad at me or even just talking hard at me. someone who had a goooddamnn passionate. a partner , a lover , a friend that makes me love him like crazy. yes, he is the guy who successfully made a cry alonng just to think that some day it will all gone and end up with something that we don't want to.

He is the guy.
a guy that finally made me move on from any past.
the half soul side that i hope, he's not the one who become my past later.